Send help, or money! Just kidding, sort of.

We had our 20 week ultrasound yesterday. Our first ultrasound of the pregnancy. We had made the big decision to find out the gender of the baby, everyone was excited. As we started the ultrasound tech asked if it was our first ultrasound and I said, "Yes. We have a running joke that it is twins so it would be great if you could confirm there is only one in there."

She did not respond.

Then there were two pictures on the screen.

She wrote baby A. I thought why on earth does it have an A after it.

Then she wrote baby B. Twins!!!

I said are you serious? She said, yes. I started sobbing. JT stared on in a mixture of disbelief and vindication that he had been correct the whole time. He was convinced it was twins from the beginning. I was so sick, I was so big already, he was right. I chose to chalk the signs up to each pregnancy is different. I was wrong.

Twin boys, by the way.

The rest of our appointment went by in a haze of shock and disbelief. When I started crying again while waiting to see our doctor the nurse told me she found out she was having twins in the very same way with a child under two at the appointment. She said she cried for 3 days and then everything was fine. It was very nice to hear, because I felt like a total jerk for crying. Here we are blessed with two healthy babies - everything looked great on the ultrasound. But twins, three kids under 3!! That is a lot to take in. Two babies. Three car seats. We need a van, shit.

We were excited to have this pregnancy and birth thing down pretty well. To not be going in blind like the first time. Well, everything is different with a twin pregnancy, and I know nothing. So, alas blind we are.

We have begun to move on from shock to planning. I have ordered books and begun to reach out to other twin mothers. We will be fine. It will be fun. In fact my biggest concern right now is for Audrey. Will she feel like an outsider all the time with twin brothers, how will we make time for just her, what did we do to my poor sweet baby girl?

But again it will be fine, it will be fun. I am sure we will not want to change a thing once everyone is here. 

Seriously though, if you want to send some help our way we won't say no ;-)